Wait and See

I'm at my 7 weeks, and while still having a mental debate over which way to go, I decided to take precautionary steps to do all the tests that i need to do just in case.  I had my first ultra-sound.  The thought of going to an ultrasound was scary - on one hand, I didn't want to bond with the baby too much, on the other hand, I want to take care of my health just in case.  We went through the procedure, but what I will remember for the rest of my life is when the sonographer showed me on screen the fetus; and that the baby has heart beat.  It literally brought tears to my eyes.  It's a miracle and it's a miracle that I'm part of this miracle.  The pure joy is indescribable.